I honestly didn't think that I would be this scared. But, I can't get seem to get my prior loss out of my head now, and I can't stop worrying that the same thing is going to happen again. See, I have had cramps on and off for a few days. Nothing severe, but sometimes they are sharp. I keep trying to tell myself that they are gas pains or something, because they have moved around a little and that seems odd to me. Today I have consistent, sharp-ish pain on my lower right side. As much as I really am trying not to worry, it's kind of freaking me out. I know that cramps can be normal, and I know that they may not be a big deal, especially since I am not spotting. That said, I just can't seem to stop over-analyzing this and worrying. *sigh*
My first beta on Thursday was 135 at 14 DPO. I am just hoping and praying that my second beta on Monday is where it should be - which is at least around 540. If so, then I think I will be able to relax a little bit. Until then, I guess I will just try to keep my mind off of it. There really is nothing that can be done to prevent a loss at this point anyway - if it going to happen, it is going to happen.