I had my CD8 monitoring appointment today. My follies seem to be doing great! I have two good follies (1.8 & 1.6), and one more that might catch up (1.3). Not bad for CD8! :) I will be taking Gonal-f again today, and then hopefully, triggering tomorrow! IUIs on Tuesday and Wednesday. I am so excited and nervous! Excited because well, I always am - I am a perpetual optimist, and having two to three good follies just makes me that much more hopeful. Nervous, because no matter how well my body responds and how many follies I have, none of that will matter if MH's numbers are too low. Eek! Please, please cross your fingers for us.
I am happy that I had a good appointment today, as it might make this afternoon a bit more bearable. I have to go to THE baby shower today. "THE" because it is for the one person whose pregnancy makes me very sad - I found out that this woman was pregnant within an hour of starting to miscarry in January. :( She was just a little further along than I was at the time. While I do okay with pregnant people and baby showers in general, her pregnancy is a different story. It reminds me of what I (almost) had, and lost, and of how far along I would be right now (7 months!) had my body not failed me. She is a great person, and I am honestly, truly very happy for her - but I can't help but be sad for me at the same time. As I said, she is the only person whose pregnancy really draws out these emotions in me, and I feel terrible about it. I'm sure it's because of how/when I found out. Thankfully, she has no idea, as I am very good at hiding my emotions and putting on a good face. I'm sure that I will be able to do it again today. It will be hard though.
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